When we try to be something else than what we are, we cultivate the contradiction.
The anxiety of what you are grows the illusion about its opposition, and by striving after the opposite we hope to avoid anxiety, but this becoming something has no being, it is therefore the anxiety of nothing.
Synthesis is not, as Hegel claimed, the cultivation of an opposition; there arises no synthesis through resistance, because all opposites contain the seed to their own opposites.
The contradiction in ourselves leads to many forms of physical and psychological reactions; they can be gentle or violent, respectable or dangerous; but the consistent self-image and world-image only confuse and veil the contradiction.
The one-sided striving of a single desire, or of a special interest, leads to self-embracing resistance.
The contradiction inwards creates conflict outwards, and the conflict is a sign of the contradiction.
Only when there is understanding of the nature of the will to power, there is freedom from the contradiction.
This means, that you as a Life Artist also must understand yourself as a desirous being.